English to Spanish Art/Literary Poetry & Literature

"while in the schoolyard I remember myself as a burgeoning personality and feel answer its nightmarish sincerity, oppressive and claustrophobic, but energetic and openly candid though completely inaccurate...."

Right now, I'm using pesada, but its not quite right:

mientras en el patio escolar me recuerdo como una personalidad incipiente y siento de nuevo su pesada sinceridad, opresiva y claustrofóbica pero energética y abiertamente cándida aunque completamente inexacta


Any other suggestions?

Thanks in advance....